My little ray of sunshine

Well I’m not sure if everyone has met my cheeky little monkey – Ayla Mae. This little ray of sunshine brings more joy to the world than what I ever would have expected. 

I know all mums say that about their babies but she really will go out of her way to bring a smile to anyone she meets. 

My husband was telling me that just yesterday morning she made someone cry. Yes tears of joy. She was doing her ‘drunken orangutan’ walk out of the swimming pool complex and then saw the girl behind the counter generally she with wave goodbye but on this day she put her arms up. The girl questioned my husband as to what Ayla wanted and with his reply of “she wants a cuddle” the girls eyes filled with tears and she came around to receive her special gift of cuddles. 

This is not the first time she’s done this, people come up to us all the time to acknowledge her happiness. I’m just hoping that her little brother or sister is just as happy. I’m 18 weeks now and though excited I’m a little apprehensive to have two babies under two. I just need to remember to breathe.

I’m sure that I’m just going to be blessed with another little angel who chose me to be its mummy for my learning I’m sure. 

Much love ❤️ 

Samantha-Jayne

Am I good enough?

This is probably the most asked question that woman ask themselves every single day. 

Now I’m saying woman because I’ve just been having a conversation with miss 16 who was talking about not liking her part-time job doing dishes. I asked her if she had asked to do something else? And then came all of the:

  • I don’t want to be a burden
  • I don’t know table numbers
  • I don’t know how to do this & that
  • I’ll ask to do it when I know how to do it

I responded with: 

“We are only good at something after we have practiced it over & over & over again. Time and hard work is what gets us recognition by others. But you also have to believe in-yourself, without believing in yourself you won’t put your hand up to be the best at whatever you are doing in your life. If you don’t believe in yourself you might just settling for what’s safe in life. Living the life of your dreams may not be easy but it is truly rewarding”. 

After the conversation I started thinking about when I hadn’t believed in myself and not followed my dreams or was just playing a small game. When all of these things were happening my soul was yearning for fulfillment and I was filled with a sadness. Now even though I’m scared I will head towards my dreams with a belief that I’m worthy of anything that my heart desires. 

If am I good enough is a question that floats into your head, whether it’s frequently or not, I’d like for you to look in a mirror and say 

“You are worth anything your heart desires. 

You are amazing. 

You are enough”.

💖Samantha-Jayne