So I’m sitting here in a darkened bar surrounded by 21 year olds & I begin to contemplate my next day of birth when I’m to turn 40.  

I’m thinking to myself where has the past twenty years gone? 

So much has happened but I think the greatest thing of all I got older & I now appreciate all that I am. 

I love deeper and I know what I want out of life. 

I can look in the mirror and I believe it when I say “you’re beautiful & I love you”. 

I actually feel Ageless and I’m looking forward to the adventures that the next 20 years bring 


There’s nothing to fear

Fear is something that I have been consumed with for most of my life.

Fear of not being loved, fear of not being accepted, fear of not fitting in, fear of not being popular, fear of not being pretty & fear fear of being too pretty. I could keep going but I think the biggest fear that I’ve ever had is the fear of who I truely am and allowing that presence to shine through.

The fear of being me.

I always thought I had to choose to be a certain way and stick to it but what I’ve learnt is that I’m ever evolving just like the different seasons throughout the year I change with things I learn from experiences I have and I’ve finally accepted that that’s a brilliant thing and that there’s nothing to fear.

So for the rest of my life I’m going to look forward to the things that make me a little anxious as that’s the feeling that I get when something extraordinary is about to happen in my life.

So I will leave you with this quote that I love:

Happiness is a function of accepting what is – Werner Erhard

Don’t shy away from happiness because you are afraid of something that might not even happen, live everyday like you have nothing to loose.