So I’m sitting here in a darkened bar surrounded by 21 year olds & I begin to contemplate my next day of birth when I’m to turn 40.
I’m thinking to myself where has the past twenty years gone?
So much has happened but I think the greatest thing of all I got older & I now appreciate all that I am.
I love deeper and I know what I want out of life.
I can look in the mirror and I believe it when I say “you’re beautiful & I love you”.
I actually feel Ageless and I’m looking forward to the adventures that the next 20 years bring
Fear is something that I have been consumed with for most of my life.
Fear of not being loved, fear of not being accepted, fear of not fitting in, fear of not being popular, fear of not being pretty & fear fear of being too pretty. I could keep going but I think the biggest fear that I’ve ever had is the fear of who I truely am and allowing that presence to shine through.
The fear of being me.
I always thought I had to choose to be a certain way and stick to it but what I’ve learnt is that I’m ever evolving just like the different seasons throughout the year I change with things I learn from experiences I have and I’ve finally accepted that that’s a brilliant thing and that there’s nothing to fear.
So for the rest of my life I’m going to look forward to the things that make me a little anxious as that’s the feeling that I get when something extraordinary is about to happen in my life.
So I will leave you with this quote that I love:
Happiness is a function of accepting what is – Werner Erhard
Don’t shy away from happiness because you are afraid of something that might not even happen, live everyday like you have nothing to loose.
Just a friendly reminder that through acceptance not much else really matters and you shine from the inside which makes you beautiful.
Loving what is.
Click the link to see a quick video of me with the lovely Maddi
Acceptance doesn’t mean resignation; it means understanding that something is what it is and that there’s got to be a way through it.
Michael J. Fox
Its funny how many people really don’t like their own company and so they surround themselves with noise.
By noise I’m not just referring to the sounds that we hear, its all the stuff in our lives that keep us busy so that we don’t have to feel anything.
Have you ever thought about how much noise you allow within your life ?
I just had a realization about the amount of noise that I have created within my life so that I dont really have to deal with the emotions that I’m feeling. Social media is one of the biggest creators of noise and I just realised that a lot of the time people are just wanting to get recognised, to feel accepted and loved. So what I’m doing is going to have a break from Facebook as a social experiment to see what else I can find out about myself.
This road is a constant journey of discovery and with each day that passes I find something a little bit even more wonderful about being me.