So I’m sitting here in a darkened bar surrounded by 21 year olds & I begin to contemplate my next day of birth when I’m to turn 40.
I’m thinking to myself where has the past twenty years gone?
So much has happened but I think the greatest thing of all I got older & I now appreciate all that I am.
I love deeper and I know what I want out of life.
I can look in the mirror and I believe it when I say “you’re beautiful & I love you”.
I actually feel Ageless and I’m looking forward to the adventures that the next 20 years bring
Fear is something that I have been consumed with for most of my life.
Fear of not being loved, fear of not being accepted, fear of not fitting in, fear of not being popular, fear of not being pretty & fear fear of being too pretty. I could keep going but I think the biggest fear that I’ve ever had is the fear of who I truely am and allowing that presence to shine through.
The fear of being me.
I always thought I had to choose to be a certain way and stick to it but what I’ve learnt is that I’m ever evolving just like the different seasons throughout the year I change with things I learn from experiences I have and I’ve finally accepted that that’s a brilliant thing and that there’s nothing to fear.
So for the rest of my life I’m going to look forward to the things that make me a little anxious as that’s the feeling that I get when something extraordinary is about to happen in my life.
So I will leave you with this quote that I love:
Happiness is a function of accepting what is – Werner Erhard
Don’t shy away from happiness because you are afraid of something that might not even happen, live everyday like you have nothing to loose.
We are really spoilt for choice these days that sometimes the amount of choice set before us becomes unbelievably overwhelming and we just do nothing.
So as human beings we are able to speak approximately 400 words in a minute but have 40000 thoughts and are bombarded with over 200000 marketing messages throughout the day. Within all of that how do we make decisions?
Do we do the right thing the thing that is expected of us from our family and friends?
Do we feel the thing that we have been talked into from all of the marketing saying buy, buy, buy?
Or do we do the thing that our heart is singing about? The decision that brings a smile to our face without us even thinking about it? The thing that makes us shine from the inside?
It’s so fulfilling when you let yourself choose that thing, a choice made from love, not from should have, could have, would haves. This is a choice that is not thought about it’s the only that is made through you like it was always meant to be, if you will destiny. Now I’m not saying that your life is pre-written I’m just saying that some choices have less struggle associated with them (though a bit of struggle increases your ability to love more)
There is no right or wrong when making choices, our choices just lead us into experiences which create the world that we live in.
So next time that you are saying that you are in a dilemma there are too many choices, take some time out and forget about everyone around you and feel what you want to choose. This may still be a hard decision to make but if it’s what you truly want it will be rewarding beyond words.